InsaneJournal

Current location:	library of DHOOM
Current mood:	happy
Current music:	'Dr. McCoy' - S.P.O.C.K.

Epiphany...
I am...happy. For the first time in months, I am genuinely happy. Not 'OMFG that's so funny!' happy, but HAPPY happy. Content and pleased and genuinely happy.



And it was triggered by the silliest damn thing. 'Star Trek.' Because I'm just weird that way. X3

To analyze, I have had something on the order of an epiphany. Well, two epiphanies, actually.

The first epiphany, chronologically, concerns my purpose in this life; which I believe to be to learn. To learn facts, to learn people, to learn about the possibilities that are out there. I had realized this before, but managed to forget. But hopefully, no more.

It was...very heartening to realize that once more. Heartening, and more than heartening. It enables me to, pardon the cliche, look at everything with new eyes. And I've started writing again, as well as having a renewed interest in science, especially astrophysics.

The second epiphany came a few days later; it concerns the value I place on friendship. It is difficult to articulate...but here goes.

I place a very high value on friendship. I must; I mean, look at the power my friends have over me. They can make me smile, make me happy, make me worry for their safety. Make me want to sacrifice myself for them - and I don't go in much for self-sacrifice.

It takes a lot for me to call someone friend. Fortunately, there are a few people I've sorted out of the drek of humanity that I can *call* friend. And I realize now that I could no more do without oxygen than I could my friends.

And all this spurred by my fantardedness. *desperately attempting to hide emotions by being facetious* (damn you, brutal honesty!)

If I take nothing else from this, it is that wisdom may be gotten from nearly any source; and it often takes something like my current obsession to spur one on to valuable epiphany.



End sappiness.