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At last... [Jan. 24th, 2008|05:42 pm]
[Current Location |Library of DHOOM]
[Current Mood | I will do this thing...]
[Current Music |Paralyzer Dark]

Well. I think I've finally actually come to a decision. It's a decision that requires me to stay with my awful job (or at least find another one that I can tolerate) for at least another year, but I've come to a decision.

I'm getting OUT. I'm moving. I'm getting the hell away from Cookeville so I can get the hell away from this job (long story short, Cookeville's job market *sucks*), and I'm getting the hell out of the South.

I don't know where I'm going just yet. I'm thinking maybe Pennsylvania, because one of my friends is up there, and I like to at least have one friend wherever I go. I'm also thinking maybe North Carolina, because another friend suggested Ashville - says it has a large community of artists. (then again, that's still the South)

Either way, this *is* going to be my last year in Tennessee. I am determined that it should be so. I desperately need a change, and since my job is a major source of misery...and I want to live somewhere else for a while, too.

I'm also putting the money from my craft-related endeavours into my 'get the hell out of the South' fund.

There are things to miss about this place, just like there are things to miss about Mississippi. But I need a change. I'm stagnating.
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Let them hate me... [Jan. 23rd, 2008|05:12 pm]
[Current Location |Intrepid Buddy's House]
[Current Mood | exhausted beyond measure]
[Current Music |Random crap on YouTube]

...so long as they fear me. Julius Caesar, if memory serves.

Cut for me ranting about my shitty job. )

And to make it all worse, I've got a cold sore and my other rat died. *need booze*
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Random Meme... [Dec. 21st, 2007|03:31 pm]
[Current Location |Library of DHOOM]
[Current Mood | blah]
[Current Music |Brains - Voltaire]

Ganked from random 'net person. Whee?

More random facts about the Mel. )
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OMFG [Dec. 20th, 2007|10:34 pm]
[Current Location |Library of DHOOM]
[Current Mood | fantarded]
[Current Music |Dolly Song]

OMFG Kirk/McCoy OTP!!! *fantarded*
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Epiphany... [Dec. 15th, 2007|01:44 pm]
[Current Location |library of DHOOM]
[Current Mood | happy]
[Current Music |'Dr. McCoy' - S.P.O.C.K.]

I am...happy. For the first time in months, I am genuinely happy. Not 'OMFG that's so funny!' happy, but HAPPY happy. Content and pleased and genuinely happy.

Nerdliness and gushy emotional crap within. Also, reincarnation thingies. )

End sappiness.
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Bizarre [Dec. 10th, 2007|06:06 pm]
[Current Location |Library of DHOOM]
[Current Mood | strange]
[Current Music |Ask DNA]

I feel...strange.

Cut because I'm a whiny emo bitch. )

[/emo]
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I am become nerd! [Dec. 9th, 2007|05:14 pm]
[Current Location |Library of DHOOM]
[Current Mood | NERD]
[Current Music |'Star Trekkin']

(writer of fanfic)

Heh. Well, *someone* got me hooked on 'Star Trek' again. (Tav, I blame you!) So, for the first time in months, I find myself with plot bunnies. I actually penned some fanfic last night! *le gasp*

Also, I'm re-watching some old Star Trek movies I checked out from the library. (my nerdliness quotient is going up by the second!) I remember watching 'The Wrath of Khan' in a high school AP English class (our English teacher kicked ass!) - and it's been a while since I've watched most of the others. But, I'm enjoying myself. (I think even my cats are nerds at this point)

I thought the fourth movie - 'The Voyage Home'? - was going to be stupid (they have to go back in time and find whales? the HELL??) and hence had never watched it, but it was quite amusing, especially when Spock started swearing. ('The hell I did' = CLASSIC!)

Also, the temptation to draw a few TOS/Invader Zim fanarts is growing by the second. Just add 'em to the list of stuff I should be shot for!!
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Random Meme [Dec. 7th, 2007|06:29 pm]
[Current Location |Cathouse]
[Current Mood | Meme!]
[Current Music |typity type type]

Let's see if this @#$! cut thing likes me today.

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Sibling Spawning [Dec. 7th, 2007|04:32 pm]
[Current Location |Cathouse X3]
[Current Mood | sucks to be you!]
[Current Music |scaaaaaaaaaaannn]

Well, my sib squirted out her baby yesterday. It was a nine pound girl - they named her Cheyenne. I'm really amused, because the doctor told them it was going to be a boy. X3 *points and laughs* I'm all for anything that causes trouble! *is shot*
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Randomness [Dec. 5th, 2007|06:22 pm]
[Current Location |library of DHOOM]
[Current Mood | earth girls are easy!]
[Current Music |Ask DNA!]

Life things:

Life thing 1:

I got a package from Tav! *happydance* It included plastic dragons (yay!), a dragon beanie plush (double yay!), and a Star Trek manga! (insert appropriate nerdgasm here) I'd forgotten how much I love Star Trek. :3 (Spock is smexy)

Life thing 2:

Argh, fundietru!

Life thing 3:

Not looking forward to January. *sigh* Terrible indeed is the temptation to play in traffic...

Projects:

Rainbow dragon head:

I attempted to make adjustments on the joints yesterday. The jaw moves a bit easier, but it's still kinda crooked. (insert pulling of hair here) I think I'll start foaming it tonight, if my ennui lifts a bit.

Stuffed Elephant:

I have tons of grey felt. So, what else would I make with it? :3 I'm just starting on cutting it out, though.
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Ah, random coincidence...! [Dec. 3rd, 2007|08:49 pm]
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[Current Location |Friend's House of DHOOM]
[Current Mood | Spongebob said WHAT??]
[Current Music |typity type type]

(not that I really believe much in coincidence, but meh)

I was ranting to a friend about people who seem to have to view the world in black and white - who have no room for shades of grey, in other words. And I told her that, if the world were light all the time, would it really have any meaning? No, say I; the presence of darkness is what gives it meaning.

So, about an hour later, I was watching Spongebob on TV. And I said something to her like, 'If Loki had cable, this is what he'd watch.' (which is, to the best of my knowledge, true) (also, note to self; make TV listings of the Gods! X3 )

So, we watched Spongebob. It was some random episode of the show with Spongebob and Patrick hurling filth and soap at one another. And then, at the end of the episode, Spongebob made THE EXACT SAME POINT I DID EARLIER! X3 My GODS, my life is bizarre!
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Argh, fundietru!!! [Nov. 29th, 2007|05:14 pm]
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[Current Location |Library of DHOOM]
[Current Mood | ARGH FUNDIETRU]
[Current Music |Typity type type]

I asked an acquaintance who'd given all the signs of not believing me when I said I was Odin's *why* he thought that way, and was answered with this. Bear in mind that I DIDN'T MENTION LOKI IN ANY WAY, SHAPE, FORM, OR FASHION:

'Hey Mel
First of all, let me say that it makes me happy when *anyone* finds meaning in this crazy world of ours. If someone comes up to me and says, "I've found the answers I've been looking for and all I had to do was put my faith in the Flying Spaghetti Monster!" I say, "that's Wonderful". It doesn't matter *what* somebody believes, it's the fact that they have faith that pleases me. Religion is where things start to go wrong. All of a sudden, there are factions and groups and dogma and infighting and persecution and wars. That's what I don't like.
Another thing to consider: Odin is the Allfather, and I respect him, because without him, I (and basically the whole human race) would not exist. I personally believe that I knew Odin before I came as a fetus to Midgard, and that he breathed the breath of life into me at my birth. But he is also an awesome and terrible God, the lord of Madness and the one being who could possibly understand Life, the Universe, and EVERYTHING. So, although he is my spiritual Father, he can be kinda hard to relate to on human terms. That's why I feel a stronger connection to Thor, I guess. We have more in common.
What I find disturbing is the fascination with Loki. Yes, I know he is Odin's blood-brother, and that we would not have many of the wonderful things the Aesir enjoy today without him (Sleipnir and Mjolnir come to mind), but Loki is not someone to be trifled with. If he is directly responsible for the Ragnarok, and the Gods themselves have trouble keeping him reigned in, then how can we humans even hope to treat with him and come out the better?
I know more than a few would-be Asatruar (since I was the steward for Tennessee) who were just starting out in our religion. Most were women, and one was a father-daughter team. They came from backgrounds like Wicca, and treated Loki as if he were the Norse equivalent of Coyote, the Native American Trickster God. What they failed to understand was, Loki leads the Jotuns in direct attack against Asgard, and takes it upon himself to destroy all life, light, and happiness in the world of Men. We should shun Loki, not celebrate him. And that's one thing that gives me pause when I see things like "the Dark Muse" in your taglines. Loki *is* a trickster, but not
for the betterment of Humankind. He is a trickster in the same way the Christian Lucifer is a trickster...he wants you to do for him what he cannot do for himself, and he doesn't care who he hurts to get it. Lord of Lies ring a bell? Remember those Asatruar I mentioned in the previous statements? Not one of them is still active in our community today. They have all fallen out, or fallen away, from the faith I work so hard to promote and support.
I am not *opposed* to anybody's believing in anything; in fact, I encourage this sort of behavior. It's just that the last time we were close, I noted an unhealthy fascination with the "dark side" of life, one of the many hunting-grounds for Loki and his ilk. It's okay to be depressed and dissatisfied with the life we are currently living, but if you come to embrace and glorify these things, then you are basically setting yourself up for heartache and self-fulfilling disappointment. Since we have grown apart due to choices we both have made, I must rely upon what I know of your past. Perhaps you have become a totally different person while you were away. I don't really know. I trust you, however, when you say that Odin is your patron. I know you well enough to realize you wouldn't make something like that up.
Well, this has all gotten sort of serious and heavy. I really didn't mean it sound like a lecture, but I treat spirituality seriously, you know. Comes from being a parent and a Steward.
Keep seeking,
Cliff'

*twitching with anger* Arrogant little...*growl*
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Rat died. Owner sad. [Nov. 27th, 2007|02:50 pm]
[Current Mood | gloomy]

One of my rats, Embla, died a few days ago. She was nearly three years old.

She was a most satifactory rat. She bit the holy living hell out of my cats if they stuck their paws in the cage, thereby providing me with entertainment. She did adorable rat things, like missing the slice of tomato I shoved into her cage and biting the bars (or me) instead. She was something warm and fluffy when I was (and still am) in dire need of companionship and physical contact.

The way her cagemate, Saille, dug around in the bedding looking for her broke what remains of my heart. She will be missed.
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Projects [Nov. 14th, 2007|04:23 pm]
Raven Mask:

Finished! (about damn time, too!) And I almost don't hate it, too. :3

New projects: (like I need more projects)

Rainbow Dragon Head:

I'm still only in the planning stages for this, but I'm really looking forward to making it. I've got most of the materials I need. (all? We'll see...) I'm going to hopefully start making the mesh base when I get home.

Lilith Sculpt:

I like Lilith. So, I make sculpture of her. :3 (it's Super Sculpey over a foil and wire armature) I've got the wings done, and part of the face, but I've still got to detail the rest of her. (BTW, I are SUCK at human faces!)

Tiger Shark:

I should be shot for this. But, I didn't recognize the pun until it was too late. :3 I'm modding a plastic tiger into a sea-tiger, and the animal that came into mind first was a shark. *is shot* I'm not finished sculpting the tail yet, but it already looks neat.
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Projects [Oct. 25th, 2007|02:31 pm]
[Current Location |Library of DHOOM]
[Current Mood | crap I've gotta work tomorrow]
[Current Music |MEGADETH!!]

Started some new stuff for Hallowe'en decorations yesterday. I plan to freak the SHIT out of the neighbour kids. ^_^

Life-Size Nny Poster:

I taped three sheets of poster board together for this. I measured it against my own height - 5'10" - so it might not be *exactly* the right height, but meh. Oh, and for future reference, I should probably seal the poster board with glue before I paint it. XP I've gotten up to the base-painting stage with this one.

Scary-ass Pumpkins:

I want to make a brain-eating radioactive pumpkin and another one being attacked by those little mini-pumpkin things. :3 I'm painting some foam ears for the mini-pumpkins, and I've got some fake blood and a glowstick. If I don't gross 'em out with this, then maybe the next project will!

Hallowe'en Fetus:

What the title says. A fetus, dressed in a skeleton suit. It's going to glow in the dark when I get done with it. In fact, that's all I really have to do to it now - paint it with glow in the dark paint. :3 (and cut it out, seal it, and hang it in my window, of course)
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Sanity? [Oct. 23rd, 2007|06:39 pm]
[Current Location |Library of DHOOM]
[Current Mood | crazy]
[Current Music |Typity type]

I had a temporary bout of semi-insanity last night, probably related to the fact that I picked up a brush again. :S Fortunately, it didn't last very long - I went to bed before it got too bad.

This all begs a question. It's possible to go insane; I know that much. But is it possible to go *sane*?
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[Oct. 21st, 2007|04:38 pm]
[Current Location |Library of DHOOM]
[Current Mood | kitty!]
[Current Music |Van Gogh's Daughter (?)]

Projects:

Femme!Nny:

I started the femme!Nny last night. I already have some concept art with her, and I really like the female version I came up with. :3 I bought a couple of cheapie off-brand Barbies and started mutilating them. They were so cheap that one of them didn't even move right, so I ended up using the legs of one with the torso of the other. *sigh* At least this time I don't have to cut the boobs off - I hurt myself trying to do that when I made the Nny dollie. DX

Raven Mask:

I've gotten a few things done to it - I've foamed as much as I plan to, and I think the eyeholes look right. (I've got to try it on in the mirror, though) But I'm having a bit of trouble with the movable jaw - I might just have to tear some bits of fabric out, but oh well. I think I'll use a different mechanism next time I try this. :S

Fetus:

I got it mostly put together on the way to work and back, but I ran out of pink embroidery thread! *cry* *sob* *emo* Why, no pink thread, why?! *gets over it* Damn hobby store *would* be closed today, wouldn't it. *muttergrumble*


Kitty Update:

Gucci has a new home! A coworker of mine (who desperately needs a kitty, IMHO) took her last night. :3 So, there's that worry out of the way.
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*Another* pathetic life-form? [Oct. 17th, 2007|03:43 pm]
[Current Location |Library of DHOOM]
[Current Mood | argh, another squitty]
[Current Music |Typity type type]

I appear to have acquired yet *another* cat - this one a half-grown squitten. *grumblegrumble* Like I need more damn cats.

So, I found her by Hobby Lobby. She came up to me, I petted her because I'm a sucker for a kitty. And I started home, and she followed me. So, I told her if she'd follow me home, I'd feed her. And she kept following me. She's apparently scared of cars - so I gave up and picked her up by the scruff of the neck.

Twice, I tried to get her into a box - once at the health department place, and once at the pet store, but she doesn't like boxes. So, I just carried her home.

I called a friend of mine after that, and she suggested that I name the cat after a handbag, since I carried her home by the neck. (fortunately, she's still enough to do the ball-up thing when you pick her up like that) So, her name is now Gucci. X3

Gucci has fleas (what a surprise) and ear mites (oh, the shock!), so I'm keeping her separated from the general feline populace at my flat, at least until I get rid of the fleas. She ate two cans of catfood last night - she's pretty thin. Poor squitty. :(

I think somebody dumped her because of not being a cute kitten anymore - she's an adolescent. She's really friendly, so I'm pretty sure she's been owned before.

THANKS A LOT, FREYJA, I REALLY NEEDED ANOTHER #@#$! CAT!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!

Oh, and amazingly, she looks exactly like one of my current bastards, Alfie. Like, exactly. Eye colour, fur colour, and all. And she bitches a lot like him, too. So I think that whatever squirted out Alfie is still squirting out kittens.

Gods, I hope I can find another home for her. It's not that I'd just dump her if I couldn't, but I REALLY don't need another cat. :S Oh, well...
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Various Things [Oct. 16th, 2007|09:28 pm]
[Current Location |Library of DHOOM]
[Current Mood | bed good]
[Current Music |Typity type type]

Life Things:

Yay!:

Yay 1: http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20071016/ap_on_go_pr_wh/us_dalai_lama <-------------- I love you, Dalai Lama! <3!

Yay 2: I slept through my alarm and missed the K-mart this morning. And to understand why that's a yay, you have to realize that my job is a. trying to kill me and b. trying to make me kill myself. So yay.

Yay 3: I went to Hot Topic Sunday afternoon and got a smartass T-shirt and a kitty-skull keychain. :3 The kitty skull is cute for some reason. XD Plus I also got to tool around the mall for a bit.

Yay 4: One of my coworkers told another of my coworkers that she needed saltpeter. Said coworker apparently misheard and thought the first woman said 'soft peter.' Hilarity ensued. X3


Argh!:

Argh 1: My job is trying to kill me!!!

Argh 2: We got a new girl in Cookeville a few days ago, and she WON'T SHUT UP!!! Especially about the TMI stuff, like bleeding like a stuck pig and getting used as a piece of ass. And she constantly bitches about men being pigs and turns around and says this guy or that guy is 'fine'. And she called another one of my co-workers a 'dick-whipped married woman', which is just immature sour grapes if you ask me. (as far as I know, said co-worker is as happily married as you can be after about thirty years XD ) And she won't STOP POKING ME!!! GODS, WHY WON'T SHE SHUT UP?!?!


Projects:

Super Seeeekret Project:

The Super Seeeeekret Project is nearly complete - I've just got a few details to see to. :3 It's a seeeeeeekreeeeeeetttt.... XD

Nny Dollie:

The Nny Dollie is also almost complete - I just have to paint the buckles and cloven-hoof thingies on his boots silver. :3 I love you, Nny! <3!

Raven Mask:

I finally got off my ass and started working on this again. X3 I got the satin for the beak sewn and hot glued on, and I modeled the eyeholes with air-dry clay and am letting them dry whilst I screw around on the internet and hit Hobby Lobby up for some felt. I also glued the nut and bolt I'm using for a jaw joint to the actual mesh - it's a little stiff now, but the jaw isn't crooked anymore. (about goddamn time!!!) The nostrils didn't turn out as I'd wanted them to, but I still am very very proud of this. Next, I must get satin over the rims of the eyeholes and maybe I'll have energy left to start foaming the damn thing. Oh, and I put pink foam inside the beak for mouthparts. Might do a tongue in red?

Platypus:

I made a platypus out of felt. It is very cute. Easter platypus, we love you! *really needs to go back to sleep*

Various felt thingies:

I want to start a camo!kitty, a shrimp plushie, and a plushie!fetus. X3
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Random Thingies [Oct. 10th, 2007|05:08 pm]
[Current Location |Friend's House of DHOOM]
[Current Mood | artistic]
[Current Music |Humming of the oxygen thingy]

A Protest:

WHAT IN THE NAME OF HOLY SHIT IS THE EVOLUTIONARY ADVANTAGE IN HAVING BLOOD COMING OUT OF YOUR GENITAL OPENING ONCE A MONTH?!?!?!?!?!

In other words, MEL CRAMP. XS


Life Thingies:

Thingy One:

Well, as I suspected there might be, there's trouble in paradise. My sibs and their boyfriends are living together in a trailer now, and from what one of my sibs says, they argue all the time. Apparently over everything but money. *sigh* I thought it would be a bad idea, but people don't ever listen to advice, so I didn't bother saying anything. Oh, well.

Thingy Two:

Apparently a friend of mine - let's call him GS - is now on medication for his paranoia. I'm happy he's getting help, but it gives me kind of an unsettled feeling. But on the other hand, I'm glad I'm able to self-medicate. (St. John's Wort, should anyone really need to know)


Projects:

The Super-Seeeeekret Project:

I made and baked the head - and managed not to burn it, whee! Also, the boots are shaped. I just have to paint the boots and work on the hairstyle and make eyes for it. :3

JTHM:

His boots are shaped, I've just got extra bits I need to glue onto them to give them their final appearance. Plus they need to be painted, and I need to paint a little message on his shirt.

Raven Mask:

I've got the air-dry clay all essentially shaped, but I've still got to glue it down. I think I may have solved the beak alignment problem. I also reinforced the mesh where the joints are so they can take the strain - it doesn't flex as much now. Plus I've hot-glued furry felt to the lower jaw on the beak part to make sure that the sateen won't show lumps when I glue it down. I've got to make the eye openings with air-dry clay now, and then I can move on to gluing in the nut-and-bolt joint and the rubber bands and then the minimal amount of foam underlaying I intend to do. I must say, the brads I picked up work loads better than the bits of wiring I was using, though it was hard as hell to find the damn things. XS
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